Sorry for lack of updates

So it has been a few days since I have posted anything. The last few days have been really rough. I havent been able to really do anything, got hit with a bad wave of depression and barely even left the bed. I have lacked the motivation to do anything even watch tv. Feeling a bit better tonight a bit paranoid and having a overwhelming sense of something bad going to happen so plan on moving back in to the bathroom safe place. I know this is not much of a update but not much has been going on. Found out though that we are meeting the rest of my family down in orlando in november, so i need to start prepping myself for that which i am super nervous about since that side of the family does not like me that much and even tried putting me in jail, plus have to start planning for all the crowds in the parks and make sure i got all the stuff i need to make it through the anxiety.