Back from the hospital

I know I have not been doing good at keeping up with my daily blog. I just got out of the hospital. I have been there the last few days due to a overdose and needing stiches since I carved the word Join on my leg. The word join follows me every second of the day I hear it whispered and yelled at me constantly in my head. Yet I still do not know what they want. Is it to join them in death? is it demons calling me to die and join them. It is so frustrating not knowing. The last few days have been so rough, while I was in the hospital I kept telling them please do not turn off my light at night and yet the refuse me and say all lights have to be out at night since there is someone else in the bed next to me. Needless to say I rarely slept. 

I am back home now though and got some new movies to watch so hopefully that will keep me distracted for the night. I wish I had someone to talk to or someone to text. Specially at night when it is the worst. If anybody is reading this feel free to message me on here or kik at Lurkingecho

Anyways tomorrow I plan on updating everyone on my Eating Disorder as well and how I have been coping with that. 

Thanks