So today started off pretty good. Got to see my 8month old niece and play around for a couple hours.
Towards 8pm however I started to get a overwhelming sense of being watched as well as hearing whispers of wind pass by my ear. For this I knew I could not stay in my room tonight. Not sure exactly what it is but there is lots of times where I get extremely more paranoid in my own room, specially at night. I also have a fear of windows at times and have one giant one in my room.
So for tonight I went back into my safe place which is our second bathroom. I moved my padded back rest, and pillows against the wall and a padded single mattress on the floor. I brought in my laptop and TV and put headphones on and watched few videos, knowing that I still wont be able to sleep, but at least I felt safe. The bathroom is my always go to safe spot, and I spend lots of time in there as my bedroom, there has been times where I spent all week in there, gotta say its a nice set-up though I don't have to leave for anything.
Well it is 5:10am here and plan on just taking a shower and trying to relax till mom comes home from work at 8am.
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